Thanks to each of you for listening to me for the past few months. I’ve enjoyed testing the waters of Blog Land, however I think it’s not for me right now.
Because who the heck am I to offer any spiritual insights whatsoever?
Because I feel like I can’t be truly honest in this forum. I’m afraid I’ll hurt my family, so I try not to reveal too much and then I have nothing authentic to say.
Because I am trapped by the theme of this blog. I’m still glass-half-empty-girl, and in a particularly “blue” period lately so I don’t have anything positive to say. Which takes me back to the problem of authenticity.
Don’t get me wrong: this journey has been incredibly helpful, if not successful in the way I had hoped. My basic nature has not transformed into a well of positivity. But through the exercise of thinking aloud in this blog, I have realized that my barrier to joy is self-inflicted. As long as I hold my grudge and anger, I won’t feel true joy or peace. Which begs the question, “Why am I such a nincompoop? Who in their right mind would hold onto grudgy, angry baggage rather than trading those for the joy and peace of forgiving and being forgiven?!?!”
I have no response to that. But I am working on the forgiving. I think I am starting to understand the immensity of the forgiveness I have received and from there, God will provide the grace this nincompoop needs to forgive others.
Thank you for your time and encouragement! I have so appreciated your comments and feedback!
God bless you!